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One of the Most Luxurious Things: Thoughts on Yoga

July 11, 2011

Do you have any secret hobbies?

I do. Mine is worrying about my posture.

By nature, I am a person who balls up into a tense wad whenever anything goes wrong. Anything. During a bad week, I look like an attendee at the Pillbug Family Reunion, before cocktail hour.

My shoulders believe that folding inward will protect my heart. When they aren’t doing that, they are climbing up into my ears. It is not clear to me what they think that might accomplish.

It’s an odd way but a common for a human to protect itself. Though I know this in my brain, I can’t seem to right it, once and for all, in my body. I can only make significant improvements through targeted periods of lots of stretching and constant correction.

With my life the way that it is, there are not many of those periods. No, I am more likely to carry small yet dense individuals around, folding myself even further into an advanced origami shape, than I am to stretch regularly.

However, it is easy for me to continue on with my project of worrying about posture no matter what I am doing, because I can multitask and do that hundreds of times a day. The clear irony is that if I stopped worrying, my shoulders might retreat from my ears, at least a little.

This morning I was able to go to a yoga class. The teacher had a perfect little star t-shirt, no belly, great posture, an open chest, and a curiously giving attitude. These yoga teachers never cease to amaze me. A foreign breed, I don’t know whether to trust them, because they seem so giving and open—or to hide from them, because, come on, who are they trying to fool with this calm and comfortable-in-the-world act?

I realized during the class that one of the most luxurious things I experience is having someone help me stretch. The teachers sneaks over quietly and helps push my shoulder back down to the floor during a twist, or they push on my lower back to get it closer to my feet during child’s pose. It’s up to me whether I smile at them or pretend they aren’t there: I feel like either option is fine. I feel taken care of, and like they know what they are doing, and like I am getting better, and like our relationship is pure and uncomplicated, and like life is good. It’s a comparable amount of goodness to how Dutch chocolate ice cream makes me feel, and yet there is nothing regrettable in this experience, nothing that isn’t virtuous.

Yoga costs $16. You have to get yourself there, and then you do a lot of physical work, but with good leadership at the front of the room, it is never not worth it, and the payoff is multifold. My posture is better. My arm muscles are more attached to my arms. I’m less mean. You’re less mean.

I always joke that doing yoga has made me a better dental patient. Better for the dentist, no doubt, but also, I feel far better able to process physical pain and fear and really, any sort of stress. I might have those x-ray things that bite that make your gums bleed in my mouth, but I am also breathing, and I know that it will end soon, and I don’t let my brain panic and get the better of my body. Or is it vice versa?

Through the cycle of tensing and relaxing during yoga, I am compelled to remember what it feels like to relax.

Maybe that is the thing with the yoga teachers, who do about 100x or maybe 1000x as much yoga as I do. They feel so much better from doing yoga, in every aspect of their organized and well-muscled lives, that they can help others in a clean and bright way, and not make them feel aware of the gap in ability and way of being.

Or perhaps it’s that they know how superior they are, and it’s not even a question, and of course they can help your slouchy self get back into the shape of a human, at least for an hour, without you being any sort of competition for them in terms of posture or muscles or calmness.

Whatever the case: I love having lavender massaged into my brow, and my hips pulled gently down out of their sockets. Though I have a natural tendency to be suspicious of them, their intention feels good, and so does my body.

Camp

July 6, 2011

It is the first day of camp.

I never want to camp, so now Henry has officially surpassed me in terms of maturity and life experience.

I knew it would happen, I wanted it to happen, but it is happening kind of soon, I guess.

I’ll try to post a picture of the tiny camper doing something camp-oriented later.

A Recipe

July 3, 2011

Alton Brown, who is a famous person I have never met, makes the best chocolate ice cream of anyone. I admire him greatly from the little I know, which is admittedly just the ice cream recipe.

I was just browsing through pages of his recipes and came upon this one for Slow Cooker Lasagna, which I haven’t made, and is out of season. Still, I have decided to share it, because of its

1. forced lasagna format

2. requirement for goat milk powder

3. need for a blow torch
I also like how it’s rated “difficult.”
Or, you could make his ice cream.

The Critic’s Enthusiasm

June 30, 2011

On Saturday, we couldn’t decide what to do. I wanted to spend the late afternoon out and about as a family, but Matthew was tired. But suddenly he suggested that we ride bikes down to the beach and get some dinner.

“I love you!” I answered. It was the best idea I’d heard all day.

So we slathered up with sunscreen and got the bikes out of the bike room and stuck the toddler in his froggy green seat and pedaled south on Ocean Parkway, a “true boulevard” leading through large buildings with lots of Russian immigrants, an Orthodox neighborhoods, and pockets of Persian Jewish wealth.

It’s pretty fascinating. It’s very Brooklyn — old school Brooklyn.

We live near Avenue H. You need to bike through the whole rest of the alphabet, plus more, to get to the beach. We’d only made it to Avenue R when Matthew stopped suddenly and looked at his watch. “It’s getting late,” he pointed out. Well, not really late, but he meant late in the sense of we have a child who normally eats at about 6:30.

How very strategic, I thought. You see, I had suspected that such a thing might happen at just about this latitude. Why? We were just a few blocks west of his favorite ever restaurant, Taci’s Beyti.

Now,  I divide the world into critics and enthusiasts. These categorizations are part of the framework of discussion in our home. I would not always characterize my husband as an over the top enthusiast: he’s more of a discerning sort, and I’m always pitching myself as the “enthusiast” to his “critic.” I do this in the shadow of his frowning brow, by the way: he thinks I’m pretty critical myself, I will admit. I will admit it enthusiastically. See?

Well. We all break character sometimes, and even when I’m looking forward to the boardwalk, I find myself uber-charmed when Matthew is helplessly passionate in the face of one thing or another. I think that the thing he may be most helpless in the face of is really delicious Turkish food. (To be fair, honey, Turkish is recognized by many experts — your wife among them — one of the world’s great cuisines: many heroes have probably fallen in its path.)

 

Taci’s Beyti is a special place for us, together and alone. It’s a special place even without us. Named after a kebab place called Beyti in the outer outskirts of Istanbul, it’s a place where Turkish people commute to eat amazing grilled lamb. Decades ago, I think they may have made the world-famous doner kebab famous. Richard Nixon ate there once, on his first trip to Europe.

In other words, the Turkish Beyti is a very well-regarded place on the absolute outskirts of a huge world city.

One could describe Taci’s Beyti in the same way.

When we were honeymooning in Turkey, we didn’t make it to Beyti, but we met plenty of Turks who had been to New York City. In fact, they pegged us for honeymooning Brooklynites, which was both fascinating and embarrassing.

“You live in Park Slope or Sheepshead Bay?” asked one rug dealer in the Bazaar, citing one yuppified neighborhood and another with a ways to go.

We live dead in the middle. He asked if we knew Taci’s Beyti, and we did. We’d celebrated our engagement there with family. We have a tradition of going with friends as a last-ditch effort at having fun before someone’s new baby is born. And our good friends who threw us a baby shower had it catered with food from there—at my insistence, I should add.

“That Brooklyn guy does Turkish grilled meat better than many of us do Turkish grilled meat,” said the rug seller.

Taci’s Beyti is full of mirrors and Russians who bring their own bottles of vodka. The lighting is terrible, it’s loud, the waitstaff are dressed in black, and children are as welcome as they ever really are anywhere. There is a sense of conviviality. The food is fantastic, and it’s byob, so it’s cheap.

The spicy eggplant stewed with tomatoes; the small lamb cubes with a grilled hot pepper, sumac’ed onions, and a blackened tomato; the karasli pide, which is like a fresh-cheese pizza; the shepherd’s salad with a lemony dressing and handfulls of fresh dill and parsley, shredded feta like snow atop it, though no one wants snow on their salad, and everyone wants this cheese.

Time and again, we fall for the famous french fries, and sometimes the spinach pies. We recently went with my parents and tried the fish: yet another revelation. We are expert at ordering there, but we need to go with other people in order to have them share the wealth of everything that we need to try. It is Matthew’s favorite place.

On the bike ride, I had suspected that things might go in this direction, and here we were.

“We could stop and get something a little closer,” he said. He pretended to think. “Taci’s Beyti?,” he wondered aloud.

He has a terrible poker face. His enthusiasm is catching. We ended up biking a few blocks east to Taci’s Beyti. Henry was in rare (read: terrible) form, and we had to drug him with lots of watered down sour cherry juice and lots and lots of kasarli pide. He had a great time. So did we.

We went to the beach the next day instead. We took the subway to avoid temptation.

Spaghetti with Tuna, Capers, Lemon, Chili

June 29, 2011

If you are ever quizzed at gunpoint about my palate, and you have to quickly come up with one fact, this should save you:

I love contrasts.

This recipe, with many complementary and contrasting ingredients, comes from a Melissa Clark book called Chef Interrupted. (Melissa Clark is the person who wrote my favorite ever shrimp recipe, so now I will follow her around like a puppy.)

The concept of that book is that Melissa Clark works with chefs to translate delicious restaurant recipes into delicious home recipes. And this recipe was originally from Zuni Cafe in San Francisco.

I chose to make it because it triggered a memory of a dish I was once served in a garden on the island of Elba, in Italy: tuna and black olives in a tomato sauce stirred through a tube-shaped pasta, a nice play on bitter and acidic against a backdrop of pasta that was almost creamy.

Those Italians on their flower-filled islands: they never fail to open our eyes to the power of a few simple ingredients lovingly mixed together, do they? It is like they are one-trick ponies, the delicious delicious Italians.

This has lemon rather than tomato brightening the tuna. Like most people of the post-Jeffersonian era, I am a fan of tomatoes, however: I live and die for lemons.

I also used capers rather than olives, which I didn’t have. The lemon zest, tuna, and olive oil itself added enough of a bitter undertone, and capers are fun little blasts of vinegary salt. Finding one in your bite is, dare I say, a similar pleasure to that of finding an Easter egg as a child. And the coarse sea salt was the piece de resistance. (Recently I’ve become aware of a bit of a harsh chemical taste in kosher salt.)

The recipe is rather like a game of telephone, because I didn’t do everything Melissa said to do, and Melissa didn’t do everything chef Judy Rodgers said to do, I’ll bet.

Never mind: it’s delicious, and even people who are two love it and want to eat the whole of their father’s portion, after they pick off the actual fish chunks.

I’m copying the recipe, and adding my own editorial comment beneath.

Spaghetti with Preserved Tuna, Lemon Zest, Hot Pepper, Capers, and Olives

Procedure

1. In a large skillet over medium heat, warm the oil. Add the lemon zest, red pepper flakes, 1/2 t black pepper, fennel seeds, garlic, and bay leaf. Reduce the heat the low and let the flavors infuse for 15 minutes. Stire in the olives and capers.

2. Remove the tuna from its oil (do not discard the oil) and add the tuna to the skillet. Break the tuna chunks up into smaller pieces with a wooden spoon. Add about six tablesppons of the preserving oil and the preserved lemon or limequat, if using. Raise the heat to medium-low and warm enough.

3. To prepare the pasta, bring a large pot of salted water to a boil. Drop in the pasta, stir once, and cook until al dente. Drain the pasta and add it to the warm tuna mixture. Remove the bay leaf. Add the basil, lemon juice, and more of the preserving oil to taste, and adjust the salt and pepper.

[Be sure to start the water before step 3. You can: prep; start water; and cook the “sauce” while the water is coming to a boil, and the pasta is boiling. For the record, I’m sure it would have been better had I used preserved lemon, and fennel, and all of the stuff I realized I didn’t have: I made it without them. If I had used preserved lemons, it would have been divine. And I wanted to modify “divine” in that last sentence, but divine needs no polish. Like this dish needs no fennel or preserved lemons.]

Ingredients

3/4 C extra-virgin olive oil

1/2 T fresh grated lemon zest

1/2 t crushed red pepper flakes, or to taste

1/2 t fresh ground black pepper, plus more to taste

1/8 t fennel seeds

1 garlic clove, slivered

1 bay leaf

1 T chopped picholine or other green olives

1 T capers, drained

10 oz. preserved tuna (Clark provides a recipe, or you can use good canned or jarred Italian in packed in olive oil)

1 T chopped preserved lemon or limequat, optional

1 lb dried spaghetti

1/4 C shredded fresh basil

2 T fresh squeezed lemon juice (from 1 lemon)

Coarse sea salt or kosher salt